I usually dont ask u questions so y are you so mad?
Look man I'm not mad. Don't get me wrong I understand the position you are in because at one point or another everyone was there. What you have to understand is that the basics are the hardest. It took me less time to learn all the tricks in the link that I posted than it did to learn decades. Wrap your mind around that for a minute.
f*cking tell yourself you WILL land the tricks you're working on or you arn't coming in. Push yourself until you can't move. It's the only way to move forward. Ground rules won't teach you that, that's all in the heart.